"Instead of asking God 'What do you want me to do next', I should be asking Him 'What do you want me to do while i'm here right now'.
I get so caught up in "whats next" and "when?!" that I forget about right now. How do I make a lasting impact on peoples life at this very moment. I've grown accustom my life in missions that I forget that everyday is a new mission, the people I grew up knowing, the people I meet randomly; God loves them all and He's given me a story thats waiting to be told.
I know my heart is here for Native America, I know that one day I will be going to Alaska, and as much as I love On Eagles Wings team in the summer, I'll probably be here in Parry Sound/Muskoka. At first this was overwhelmingly scary to me, infact my heart broke a little! Being at home is never easy for me, I tend to feel alone and out of place, like I don't belong... It's on those moments that I begin to lose sight on "What God wants me to be doing right" and I start trying to figure out for myself "whats next".
Funny how I want to work with the First Nations here but I never feel "ready" or let the feelings of "being alone" take over and I actually close up, rather then allowing myself to be open to people I run into day-to-day.
Isn't satan sneaky? He takes good intentions and confuses what God has planned for my life and has me stop waiting on God and start planning for myself, so much so that I forget to ask God what I should be doing.
So God... This is me asking you... What now?
This blog started as "my life in missions" but has become what inspires me, my thoughts through lifes ups and downs, & what is God teaching me.
