My Mothers Strenght

(this was originally writen sept 26, 2010)
Last night I found new admiration for my mom.
and it also made me realize what a forturnite fool i really am!
The person I am today, is because of my mothers strenght and perseverance thoughtout her life.
As she was allowing me to see glimpses of her childhood, I wanted to feel sorry for her, I wanted to cry, but it was in that moment I felt and realized her strenght.
What kind of woman could go through so much garbage and still find it in her heart to forgive and become such a loving person; a person who would do anything she possibly could to help family and friends?
Easy, a woman who is living for the person who created her!

When I say i'm a fortunite fool, I say this because I was given everything in life, and now i still expect that... i have BIG dreams, dreams that I sometimes think will just happen. I'm learning what I put into life, is what I get out of it. I've been so truly blessed to have had a life that was handed to me on a silver platter, but I need to FINALLY learn to not be afraid of failure, or not always being "perfect". I know what I believe, and I know who I am. I want have that same drive my mother has.

Wish List

Thanks to Daniela my make up teacher(www.noveimage.com), there are a whole lot of products my tiny budget needs to invest in! haha, so i figured this would be a good way to remind myself what I would like. (cause i suck at looking back into school notebooks).
Wish list:
*Professional colour analysis kit*
Regular facials
NOAHS Natural foods; Argyle green clay
Clinque Moisture surge
Fish oil pills
Age lock
photo appolision
Hiscott beauty supplies; bennye for covering splotches
acupuncture
Rolfing
Paula Begoun membership
Quo brushes (especially the angle brush)
MAC eyeshadows: faces for winter (soft black)
Mystery (cool taupe brown)
Espresso (warm brown)
Tweezerman tweezers
MAC; pink swoon blush



This is it for now. haha, off to sleep! (image management tomorrow!)

"Hi, my name is Melissa and i'll be your colour consultant for today. Today we are going to find your "wow" colours. Your wow colours harmonize with you, and allow you to look your best, healthiest and most powerful..."

Sir Isaac Newton discovered that light is the source of colour, if you don't have light you don't have colour, and if you change the light you change the colour.

I can't help but think of Light in terms of the one who created us. How much Light am I allowing into my life? Am I allowing God to shine his brightest in my life? or are there places where i've tried to hide from the light? where I won't let it in?But I know I'm called to be a light also! (we all are!) I asked Jesus Christ to come live inside of me... and something soooooo bright thats living inside of me, should make me become a light too! I don't want to be some dull light that has slowly replaced Christ's with some unlasting love, love that is so easy to disappear.

I want to become the bright light that God has created me to be, one that is pure, full of joy and love. I want Gods light to reveal my "wow" colours.